green liver

kate: that's why I drink straight out of liquor bottles

kate: for the environment.

Rest your trigger on my finger

This is a very bizarre video of a very clean live version of Tool's "Pushit". I don't know where the the animations came from or what performance the audio is from, but if you listen closely at certain points you can hear what sounds like muted cheering, and very audible cheering at the end. The youtube page didn't have any information about its origins. Regardless, it's still beautiful and eerie.



(I'm posting this not only because it's amazing, but also because I have been listening to this song particularly, as well as the rest of Aenima, for about a week now. It seems to be the only thing I can listen to while working on my finals, or while doing anything else.)

What I've been waitibg for.

Just finished the Ethics. Smoked a couple cigs. Then sat on the toilet with my pants down and stared at the tile floor until my vision started to subtly vibrate .

There is no turning back now. That's what happens when the truth is revealed. And to think, for almost 400 years this has been floating around and still most people don't know about it. What the fuck is up with that? Seriously.

Now, I'll listen to Tool until my ipod dies, which it inevitably will, and write about rationalism and literature.

brain storming for spinoza final (20pg)

The idea of the supernatural is an inadequate understanding of the nature of God. God, being the infinite essence of which all things are attributes and modes, there is necessarily nothing in existence throughout eternity that does not receive its essence from God’s nature. Therefore, because God is Nature and all things originate in God, all things are natural.

In the Ethics the foundation of inadequate ideas is an ignorance of the ultimate and proximate causes of effects. This is essentially the same argument he makes negating the reality of miracles. Miracles are nothing more than natural phenomena which surpass the observer's understanding of the forces of nature which could have cooperated to produce such phenomena. In the same way that God has no choice but to infinitely express his essence through his attributes as realized in finite modes of existence, humans have no choice but to be acted upon by external causes. The only freedom that humans have is to employ reason to understand what the causes are that determine their actions, and amend their understanding of them so that the awareness of causes helps to increase ones power to preserve ones existence, which is ones inalienable sovereign natural right.







p.s. Stooges, Fun House = probably the best album ever in the history of rock music.

one more adequate idea

"... he alone is free who lives with free consent under the entire guidance of reason."

finals. again.

the moon is full.

i'm drinking coffee at school.

i feel like i'm in on a secret.

for the past four days i have felt like i have been on psychedelics but i have not been.

progress is being made towards my ultimate present.

i want to shake spinoza's hand and thank him for putting into words what i have struggled to.